purpose

Why am I alive?
What is my purpose?
Truthfully, I dont know.
Trying to find something.
Something that makes me....
Useful.
I dont know.
I might never know.
But if I help one person,
Just one person,
Then I might feel....
Worth while.





purposeless life
was thinking abt someone and this came!

save me

I love you
NO! I hate you!

I love myself
NO! I HATE IT ALL!

I'm sitting here
Regretting the past

Loving and hating
The future I have

No medication
Can clam this me

And no drive can
Make me what I wish to be

I'm tired of being the devil
I'm tired of being an angel

I want to be normal
I want to be sane

But I long for insanity
And love who I am

Do I? Do I really?
Yes and no, a depressing answer

I'm going to kill myself!
I can't kill myself!

I'm calling your name
And cursing it to

Loving myself
And hating you

Hating myself
And loving you

Forgive who I am
I am diseased and sick

And what I am
There is no cure

I'm tired of trying
To be number one

And yet I want more
Of the spotlight

I'm dying inside
To say this now

And living in hate
As I love being greedy

Someone save me
Someone kill me

Save me from this world
PLEASE DON'T KILL ME!

I need an end
I need no end

I want forever
I want it never

Save my Mind!
Save my Life!

Kill me!
Don't Kill Me!

I need a savior
Save me.


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oct 24th,2:23 pm

if i die tonight.

For if I die tonight...
How will we make this all right?
Leaving you here without me
Would you understand that it was not my fault?
Will you just forget about me and suffer the fall....
If I died here tonight...
Would you cry for me and feel like you want want to die?
Would you be reminded of what it is to love....all over again?
Would the memories come crashing through in endless waves of pain
If there was a sea named after me, would it be named...."Sorrow?"
If I died here tonight would you know that my love for you was true
That I fought just to stay alive for you
Would you understand that I meant everything I said when I told you how I felt for you
Would you love me even after I was gone?
The only one that mattered when no one else was around
I'm sure you would just move on and I would become another forgotten one
If I died here tonight
Would you still want me at all?
Would you wish upon the brightest star in hopes that we can be together once more?
Would you ever cry?
If I died here tonight
Would you have held me in your arms and whispered "I LOVE YOU" one last time?
If I died here tonight would you make this a memorable night?
Will I look into your eyes and see that love of ours will never die?
Just remember to keep your head up high.
But on this night......
I come bearing bad news.....
Im sorry, but I have died.

SEX

Some like it wet,
Some like it dry,
Some like it soft,
Some like it hard,
To some it’s just a few hours of fun,
For some it’s the true bonding,
Some like it with a group,
Manage a trios?
Hand Job,
Hard on,
Hug me,
Kiss you,
Fuck her,
Abortion,
Depression,
Condoms and Rubbers,
Doctor’s and mothers,
Lust and Foreplay,
Let it go away.


:D



another lecture effort ! =P